The Power Is In Your Hands

Two months feels like a lifetime ago. In two months so much has changed and I have continued to learn more about Ben, myself and those around me. I have felt proud; brave and happy. Three things that are so important to me and my mental health. New Years Day I set myself a personal challenge….

Ignorance Isn’t Always Bliss

Social media is a blessing and a curse. It creates the illusion of “perfect” lives and constant happiness; both of which I know not to be true. As lovely as the idea is no one can happy 100% of the time; life just doesn’t allow this. We all have battles, big and small, and we…

Nineteen

Nowadays, Ben never goes away. Even on the good days he is patiently waiting in the shadows, choosing the perfect time to make an appearance – just when I start to believe he’s taken a well overdue holiday.  In the last two years I know how much I have changed, maybe not noticeably on the…

Today

Today is not a good day. Why? I don’t know. And these days I find the hardest. When there is a reason for these feelings I find it easier to deal with, regardless of how irrational that reason may be. But when you wake up with this feeling in the pit of your stomach, an…

When Ben Comes Out To Play

There are various triggers for Ben; some that are consistent and others that are completely random and unexpected. I can never figure out which ones I find ‘easier’; I like to be prepared for any attack but also knowing that certain situations have made me anxious in the past can actually bring on Ben. People…