Background

When I was 15 and my mind was introduced to Ben, I had no idea what was happening to me. There was no build up to this new hysteria I was experiencing; no warning; no understanding. Fortunately, this period of anxiety and panic didn’t last particularly long and I was able to continue for a…

Split Second 

Sometimes it’s hard to remember that not everyone ‘gets’ it.  ‘Gets’ this. ‘Gets’ me.  And that is totally fine; difficult I will admit, but fine. What is not fine is pure ignorance and disregard for someones feelings. Whether this be entirely intentional or not. Whether this be for a ‘joke’ or not.  Those who know…

Sh*t Roomie

These last two months have been some of the most steady and settled times I’ve had over the course of my “cohabiting” with Ben. For those that know me personally and have dealt with my anxiety in close proximity will recognise how big of an achievement this is. There have been times where I have had…

Give Me A Bucket Full Of Therapy

Proud. Content. Happy.  I have made so many decisions that have shaped the last two weeks into some of the best I’ve had in relation to Ben. I feel so in control.  Last week I had my hypnotherapy consultation; a step that I have debated over and researched for a fair few months. For those…

Relief

It still baffles me how much can change in such a short amount of time. You’d think I’d have gotten used to this by now. But no. It still throws me.  However, this time has been vastly different. And that itself baffles me even more.  Am I stronger? Am I getting better? Is Ben taking…