Diary Of Me: 2 – Here & Now

As always I have all the right intentions of writing regularly, and then life kind of just gets in the way. Or sometimes I find it hard to offload how I’m feeling so I wait until I feel more able to. Things have been up and down recently; I’ve still not felt myself but in…

Diary Of Me: 1

I never wanted my blogs to be consistently negative, however, I always promised myself I’d write openly and honestly. For my own benefit if not for everyone else’s. Even when it’s scary and vulnerable to say how I truly feel, even when I leave myself open to judgement and ridicule, even when none of it…

My Experience Of U.M.T

February 11th; the big day. When I woke up at 4am I felt surprisingly calm, and even for the first 2.5/3 hours of the journey I wasn’t panicking. But when we were around 35 minutes away Ben went into overdrive. I felt shaky, incredibly nauseous and my heart was racing. I’d told myself I wasn’t…

Will It Work?

Tomorrow is the big day. And Ben is very much behind the scenes creating niggles of anxiety. I’m trying really hard to be positive and optimistic, but at the same time, if this doesn’t bring me some relief or some guidance in regards to how to manage my emetophobia and Ben; I will be back…